Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Well, one bad day isn't so bad
Today is a bad day. It started at 4:30pm yesterday. Fatigue, nausea, etc. Plus, I got a head cold. I suspect it was from Mason. It has reeked havoc on me. I woke up okay, but it went downhill fast. Maybe it was that I missed Nolan's first tooth while he has been at my parents, or maybe it was that I did too much research yesterday trying to answer the question of why did this happened to me and where is the awareness that this can happen to people under 50. How did I miss this? What did I do wrong? And then, I get a package on my porch from a stamping consultant friend of mine. It was an order on items that were going to be discontinued I was going to place, but never did because of the cancer frenzy. She remembered. She enclosed the most beautiful card that reminded me that I have a lot to be thankful for. And then there was Mint Julep Body Wash from my neighbor that I got on my porch after the Mint Julep post, the card I got from a family friend that told me to keep up my stamina and that she thinks of me often, the funny emails, or the post from friends I haven't seen in a while but love so much, "the Brown Ribbon campaign", my phone conversation with Mason about the remote control cars he plays with Grandpa, and finally my im conversation with my college buddy that made me laugh and sob at the same time. In the end, I know that I am so lucky. Today will melt away under the "Cancer Sucks" category. My friends won't, my children won't, my family won't. One thing is for darn sure - no more research and no more questions today. There is some good news - I get unhooked from my cancer stick today so I can have my kids back tomorrow - that makes me happy.
Posted by Angela Clarno at 10:42 AM