The Most Amazing Day; Even On Chemo

I finally have a plan!!!!!! Can you believe it?!?!?!?! The planner has a plan - yippee!!!! For me that is as exciting as the news!!!!! Anyhoo, after months of not knowing even the outline of my future, I have a plan which also means I now can see the whee (sp) speck of light at the end of the tunnel. Best of all it ends before Kauai. Okay, here are some of the details.....the tumor board met and the all agreed, even my surgeon, to not do surgery. YEE HAAA! I get to keep my rectum! (Never in my wildest dreams did I think as going to say that and be THRILLED about it!) We are going to get me set up for radiation on Friday and then start sometime after that. It may take some time to get it set up and scheduled, so I have to keep my regular chemo appointment in case it takes too long. During radiation, I will also be taking a lower dose chemo in pill form everyday in addition to my 15 minute radiation appointment everyday (M-F). Of course, there are side effects, but when aren't there! My sincerest desire it to get through the holidays without having the cancer wand on during Christmas and my wish may be granted. I am faxing them all today to remind them on my wish!!!! So, after six weeks of radiation and low dose chemo, I will then return to my regular chemo for 2 to 3 months. Then, they, and I quote, "You'll be done, but we are going to watch you like hawks." I asked about Kauai on March 28th and he said, "You're going." No better words could hit my heart. "You're going." After that, I was done with the appointment mentally. I just smiled for ear to ear. My body didn't fail me like I thought in the beginning. My body respected my wishes about my beloved Kauai and got me there. Too tired to type more - emotionally spent and a very good way, Ang