This past weekend...

Hi - I am still in the hospital, but Michelli brought me her computer!!! Yeah Michelli!! This weekend was a bit of a disappointment as you can imagine. I was so looking forward to going home and being with my family proper. I was pretty upset about the whole thing but then the meds kicked in and Grant brought the boys for a visit. We watched half of Bolt, read books, went for a walk and gave lots of hugs and kisses. It changed my entire attitude. Nolan relaxed against me during the movie and I got to kiss the top of his beautiful perfect little head. Then he figured out that you could turn the lights on and off from the bed and a light show ensued (sp). Moment over. Mason was the big boy looking at my atrium (the contraption that is draining my lung and monitoring the air pocket). He sounded very official when he was asking the nurse all sorts of questions. Everyone loved them and they were the talk of the shift. Of course, they were! When it was time to go, Mason wanted to stay longer, but Nolan happily looked at me gave me hugs, kisses and said, "Bye Bye Mommy." Mason said he would come back tomorrow and I gently told him with we would visit again soon, but that I couldn't tell him exactly when. He accepted the answer while looking at me sideways. He asked if I lived here now and I replied quickly that I did not. In any case, they had a great weekend with Dad and happily went back to Grandma and Grandpa's house Sunday. It is so nice to have them so amenable. I am so lucky. Yesterday, my mom, Michelli, and Donna stayed with me for a while so I was far from alone. I clipped Sunday Paper Coupons, sat outside in the sun for an hour and even walked to Bartell's with my Aunt to buy more magazines. Yep, I was in my hospital gown, robe and carrying my atrium with me. I got a lot of looks and quite honestly, I totally had forgotten how strange that would have looked. I really didn't care. It was a big walk and I was tired when I got back. This morning, when I told my oncologist that I did that he laughed and looked at me like, "Of course you did." So, I am doing okay. There is serious talk about me going home today and I would like that if nothing else, just to get some rest in my own home, spend some time with Grant, go through the mail, etc. I miss my house. I miss my husband. I miss life, but the important thing is I am a lot better then when I got here and a hellava lot better than after they put this thing in. I am ready to go home....cross your fingers that they will let me. One last cute story....Michelli and Beth were cleaning my house on Saturday and Mason was talking to Michelli. Michelli said something along the lines of, "Mason, I sure love your Mommy." He replied with, "I love my Mommy too and she loves me." Michelle said, "How could she not love you?!?!" And, without missing a beat, he said, "I KNOW! Everybody loves Mason!" What a lucky boy. Enjoy today, Ang