Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Application sent...

Well, after a lot of hours, tons of edits (thank you Nanette, Laurie, Grant and Karissa!), the application was sent last night at 6:07 from the FedEx office by my house. I was going to wait and have Grant send it from his office, but I needed to do it. I needed to hand the application to the lady at FedEx, say a little prayer, and see it go. She probably thought I was a nut job, but I get that a lot these days and, quite frankly, don't really care anymore. On the way to FedEx, as throughout writing this application, I started to cry. I guess I am scared that now, my once semi-private battle with cancer, is now going to be judged and graded. Maybe my fight will not be strong enough and I won't get in and, therefore, I will let Bob down. Don't get me wrong, I know Bob is just happy that I applied. It is just the feeling of it. I also think about actually being chosen and the fact that I could become popular because of rectal cancer. Personally, I think I was pretty fabulous before my cancer, so being popular because of my cancer kind irks (sp) me a bit. Oh well, we will see. I hope that I do get it - for Bob and for me. Off to chemo, Ang


Anonymous said...

You are and always will be fabulous. I am most excited that your butt may now become famous (on more than the local level). Just as I had always suspected...the butt end does rule everything. :-) I shall from this moment forward refer to you as butt strong (vs head strong).

Joking now aside...I am so very touched by your journey and how much of a role model you are for all of us.

You are living every moment fully present. Whether with TinkerBell, blogging in the tub or telling your doc you need a break, you are experiencing everything...fully. What a gift you are. Truly.

The world is still a much better place with you in it.

Anonymous said...

Good for you Angella for getting that sent. You are an inspiration (and very funny).

Thinking of you.
Kim (from scrappin at Shannon's)
Let me know if you ever want to borrow the cricut!