Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Owed to my husband
Monday was a pretty good day. Chemo went well. I had my normal entourage of people. Heck, I am there for four hours, I might as well have a line up of visitors! Tuesday went really well as I am learning how to negotiate my side effects. Grant left my lunch selections out on the counter for me to warm up so that I didn't have to touch anything cold. However, this morning I am back to my nausea and fatigue. I slept forever last night and woke up only to curb the nausea and then back to bed. Anyhoo, what I wanted to say today is about my husband, Grant. How lucky I was to meet him 15 years ago. A blind date. After all this time, longer than most marriages last, he still is the best decision I ever made. He has been such a trooper through all of this. He was the one that told me I had cancer. He went to every appointment, tracked everything that each doctor said, held my hand, held me while I cried, and still had the energy to say, "We will get through this." Since diagnosis and being the planner that I am, I have gone through every scenario. If I die soon, if I die later, and if I don't die of this. He has listened to them all and closes all our conversations with, "It is what it is and we will get through this." Now, during the next story remember - I am planner, a daughter of a business man, and a business major. I run our family like a business - finances and all. So, one day, I said to him that it would economically advantageous for the family if I died before our life insurance is up for renewal (which is in seven years). That way, Grant would have enough money to not work or start a part-time business, the boys could have a full time nanny, go to private school, he could afford a house cleaner, only need one car, and wouldn't the expense of me. I say this because once the life insurance is up for renewal I am assuming there is NO WAY they are going to renew me. Grant patiently listened to all of this - my rational, my reasoning, etc. He didn't get upset, he didn't tell me to stop, he just listened. When I was done, he calmly said, "I think I would like to go with the other plan of being without life insurance and having you." I retorted with, "But...." and he just gave me the look of "conversation over." And, I shut up (don't be so shocked!). Yep, he is the best decision I ever made.......
Posted by Angela Clarno at 10:01 AM