Tuesday, January 11, 2011

It is times like this

I am very thankful for all that is done for me. For all the meals, from strawberry and pineapple skewer for my kids to mini pizzas that the boys like to do, to casseroles that last for a week, to brownies that don't last so long, to the cleaning crews that come to my house, to the Designed Dinners in my freezer (that I did not put there), to my parents' constant help with the boys. Because sometimes, just sometimes, I feel like quitting, just letting it go, stopping, getting my life back for however long that will be. But then, I stop and think of all the people that do all the things for me and what they would say - "But, you can't." "We are so close." "Please - go - for me." "Come Ang, buck up, you can do this." and I cry, wipe my tears, and go. I off to chemo this afternoon, sick to my stomach already, but know that twenty years from now, I won't remember it. Heck, if they give me enough meds, I won't remember most it on Saturday! THANK YOU. Loves, me

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Reading this my eyes started to well up with tears and the next thing I know I was laughing out loud. You Rock and thanks for sharing!

Love & laughter,

Annemarie

Myrna said...

Don't give up, Angie...

Anonymous said...

When young people commit suicide, I always think of the others who are fighting so hard to live. We do not know what is around the corner. Having such a wonderful family and so many friends has to be motivation to keep on fighting. Each day is one day closer to your goal and each day is precious even when it is difficult day. Many people are holding you up in prayer and positive thoughts..love you kid, Pam

Libby said...

You will be so glad when this is all behind you. I'm thinking about you.