Friday, June 19, 2009

Home for good

While I was packing everything up on Wednesday night and Thursday morning, it seemed like 15 years had past. I was so used to living out of a suitcase in my Mom's dining room and sleeping on the couch (the only place I was comfortable after surgery) with my boys upstairs with my parents. My Mom and I were discussing how much has happened. Two surgeries, three hospitalizations, countless doctor's appointment, chest tubes, etc. Also, there was the time period that I couldn't lay down by myself and someone would have to lower me and then I could change position because I had surgery on one side and a chest tube on the other. It was just less than a month ago. I absolutely have no concept that it is June 19th either. My friend at preschool asked me the date, and I literally had no idea. I guessed, and I was so wrong it was frightening. I guess in my mind it is still April and I have blocked the last two months out. As for me, I am doing well. I am off all the drugs, but take Alieve every once and a while. Coughing is okay now, sneezing can hurt, but it is burping and the hiccups that really get me. I think it is because I really don't know when they are coming. The pain in no longer in my back. It is in my sternum and it is slowly getting better. I can take deep breaths and that is really nice. I just have to do it s-l-o-w-l-y. I still can't lift Nolan. He is such a little trouper. He climbs up in the Explorer by himself and gets in his car seat so that I don't have to lift him. The boys were so excited last night to be moving home for good. Mason, of course, said he was going to miss everyone, but he was happy to be HOME. I am anxious to begin being normal and slowly I am getting there. I have already gotten the call that I need to do some therapy because of the PTS that goes along with a long treatment period (apparently, two years is the trigger for that). I am swimming in medical bills and explanations of benefits, but I am working through them, in addition, to doing my Grandma's medical bills from a fall in February. I am just thankful that we have such good insurance coverage Grandma and I. W are really lucky that way. I guess I am just really lucky all around. My last cleaning crew is coming on Saturday and the meals will stop next week. I will be normal again but NEVER NEVER the same. Enjoy the rain - it is washing the past two months right off of me. Love, Ang

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

Welcome back to Normalville! Just take it easy and enjoy, everything will fall into place. I sometimes don't know what the date is.....and I haven't been thru everything that you have been going thru.
Looking forward to hearing of your "normal" summer life.

Myrna said...

I do hope you'll write some "normal life" blogs, Angie. You'll no doubt have to decide whether or not to continue these--maybe part of your therapy!=) Anyway, you've been such a trouper keeping us all up to date and we love you...

Daria said...

Wishing you the best in your normal life ...

Anonymous said...

God Bless You and your wonderful parents! love, pat&mag

Anonymous said...

So glad you are feeling better every day and easing back in to your new normal. Take care and enjoy!

Anonymous said...

Hi Ang,
So glad you are back home, I'm sure being with your folks is home too. I bet Nolan is quite proud that he is a big boy climbing up and into his own car seat, even the little ones can help :)
Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy your boys....all Three!

Love, Vivian

Anonymous said...

Ang, Welcome back to Normal. But I think you will have a different normal. A better normal and may we all follow your lead in never taking "normal" for granted again. I hope you had a good Father's Day, what a good one for Grant. We just got back from Potholes State Park where we camped for the weekend. I can't help but think of you camping this summer. My kids were your kids age on our first family camping trip.
Just a "normal" camping trip with friends.....makes me smile for you.
Please keep us all informed of your normal life now.
Just tickled pink for you!!!
Your unmet friend

Anonymous said...

My neighbor Joyce sends her greetings and congratulations on your remission.

- Tim

Anonymous said...

You are an answer to many, many prayers! I am so glad to see you are doing so well. It is nice to be "home". Bless you, Kari's mom, Neva

Anonymous said...

I am so glad that you are home and getting back to normal--you have been in my prayers for so long. My mother is Margie Parker and she shared her concerns with me. I know you don't know me, but I wish you a very long and happy life! God bless you every day!
Julie Harms Cannon

Jennifer A. said...

Angela, I love you and your family and think of you often.... You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Jennifer